04-13-12; Gang Green

Last night I had this horrible dream. I think we were in World War 3. I was in a camp with other people who had survived the most recent bombings. I was being treated for a leg injury by two local doctors. All of a sudden, my leg started turning green and bubbling up. I was TERRIFIED of losing my leg. I went limping through town to find the nearest doctor, but both of them blew me off. I decided to return to my old house in Mio from when I was about six years old. We used to live at 300 Deyarmond Street in Mio. I walked in and found my mom and my sister sitting there. I showed them my leg and I decided to go to the emergency room. I walked there and found it empty, all but one woman (who I recognized from my current job at the library). She took a look at my leg and got frantic because I had not come to her sooner. In truth, I did not know she was a doctor. She began washing my leg with some sort of medical liquid and the green started disappearing. I was so relieved! I went back to my house but we were under attack again. I hid inside a closet, but when I was trying to get out of the closet, I accidentally scraped my leg and the gang green was returning. The doctors said they were going to have to cut it off. I was so scared and I cried and cried. Since I was little, I have always feared losing a limb to gang green.

4-8-12; baby??

In this dream, I was pregnant. Now, I am not saying it isn't a possibility, but it is highly unlikely. I was trying to hide my pregnancy from my boyfriend. I decided to move to Texas, where no one would know me. I had all of these maternal instincts though, and for some reason I just HAD to check on my sister before I left. I drove to Mio and she saw me and at once knew I was pregnant. I was so happy that she knew, but I made her vow not to tell anyone. I wanted to be the girl who went away. I drove and drove until I reached Texas. I remember finding an ocean view dock and sitting there. I had no plans, no money, no job, and no cares. I was on my own, except for the baby. I think I would have named her Marabella (I don't even like that name in real life)

04-01-12; Murder

This dream was particularly terrifying. I am sleeping at my boyfriend's house alone in the woods. The neighborhood is quiet, yet populated. In my dream, someone was trying to come into the house through the front door. They were either a burgalar, a rapist or a murdered, I am not sure. All I knew was that my life was in danger. I laid in bed frozen, weighing my options. I could play dead, but that probably would not work. I could agree to have sex with him just so I wouldn't get raped (ew). I could hide under the bed..but my car is in the driveway and they would probably figure it out. I could get up in the top bunk bed and try to hide under the mattress, but that didn't seem feasible. I could try to hide in the shower, but it had glass doors. Finally, I decided that if he were to get the door open, I would have to run out the back door at the same time. But which neighbor should I go to? There is an old lady next door, but she probably would not be much help. There is an old man and his wife across the street, but would they hear me banging on the door? I was convinced that the neighbor to my right was the one trying to get in. Also, my cell phone had no service so I couldn't call 911. Not to mention, the house is out in the sticks and they would probably never get there in time.

So I decided I needed a weapon to defend myself. My boyfriend had a .22 shot gun near the door..but I couldn't remember where he kept the bullets. I could try to hold it up just to scare the intruder away, but he probably had a gun too. I could run to the kitchen for a knife, but I was blanking on where my boyfriend kept the big huge knives. If only I had my pepper spray, but I had left it in my car, which was locked. Finally, I chose the aluminum baseball bat sitting in the corner of the house. As I got up to retreieve it, my cat jumped up at the door and pulled the curtain back, revealing the intruder's identity: it was just a shadow. 

I woke up and could not sleep for the rest of the night. I was convinced that someone was trying to get me. I listened for any sound that would detect an intruder. The next morning, I asked my boyfriend to buy some bullets for his gun.

3-29-12; Injury

In this dream, I was paralyzed. I could not move, but I was aware of everything going on around me. My cat was licking my arm, I was in bed, it was thunderstorming. But I could not move. I was trapped and suffocating. I woke up just before the door to my house swung open. I still don't know who was opening the door..someone to save me? The master of death? 

3-22-12; If I Die Young

We have all heard the song "If I Die Young" by The Band Perry.
This dream was extremely sad for me. My mom had recovered from cancer and we were celebrating by running a 5k together. Suddenly, she dropped to ground and died. I screamed for help and cried and felt utterly shattered.
For her funeral, we put her into a wooden canoe and floated her away down the AuSable river. I remember thinking "they put the wrong shade of lipstick on her".
I was afraid to go back to sleep.

3-18-12; God

In this dream, I was standing in a yellow room full of light. It was as if I was dead. I was screaming at the top of my lungs "is God real?" I received no answer.. But in my heart, I knew he was. 

I woke up thinking: God doesn't owe me an answer, I owe him the hard work to figure it out myself

03-10-12

In this dream, I was driving in the car with my McNair mentor. We were going to his house for a BBQ. Suddenly, we ended up at my high school band room and got into a huge argument. I walked home to my old house on Frick Street and refused to come out of my room

03-06-12; New Experiences

Last night I had a really weird dream. I was at my grandma's house and I was locked inside..or maybe I was hiding inside. I think actually it was a concentration camp and we were hiding from air bombers. I started engaging in sexual relations with a female I do not even know. It was really uncomfortable and I remember feeling dirty, embarrassed and gross. I did not like the experience at all ( I am heterosexual by the way. ) 

After I ended the relations because I was uncomfortable, I went and laid in bed, however I was laying next to a guy named Aaron that I knew from high school. He was somehow my boyfriend and he was keeping me safe from something inside the house, however I can't remember what exactly. It was almost like I was still in the concentration camp and he was keeping me from going to the gas chamber. Every time the Capo came to find me, I played dead.

03-05-12; multiple dreams

All in one night...

Dream One: I was walking around walmart and I sat down my green backpack and red coat near the front because it was too heavy. I proceeded to walk around until suddenly I got this horrible feeling that I needed to head back to the grocery department. I started running that way only to see myself running and suddenly I was not a part of my dream anymore, just watching. Suddenly the figure running was Harry Potter and he was going to face Darth Vador in the bread aisle. However, I had sat down the green backpack which contained his wand and he could not find it! Just in the nick of time, before Darth Vador killed everyone in the store, Harry found his wand and began to battle Darth. 

Dream Two: My boyfriend, Chris, came to visit me at CMU. We were sitting outside eating lunch, when all of a sudden I noticed a girl glaring at me from afar. Chris was acting really funny too. I held his hand and kissed him but he seemed distracted. I asked him to call me later tonight but he said he couldn't because he had blisters on his hands so it hurt his hands to hold the phone. That day I was competing in a fundraiser in which I was riding my bike from Mt. Pleasant to Harrison. Since Chris lives in Harrison, I said "Well why don't you pick me up after I get to Harrison" and he said no, I couldn't come over. Again, I saw the same girl, I think her name was Becky, staring at me. I put two and two together and I think I was dreaming that Chris was cheating on me with another girl. She was tall, skinny, with long brown hair.

Dream Three: In this dream, I was running a booth at my high school for a carnival. I had to make homemade cookies and let little kids win the cookies. As I showed up to work the booth, I suddenly realized that I did not bake any cookies. We only had one batch to get the game started. I ran outside to the parking lot to drive to the nearest store to buy some cookies that looked homemade. However, the car I went to was one of those new smart cars that looks only big enough for a small child. I got in the toy car and drove to Glen's and my car went "weeeeeeeeeeeee, veeeeeeeee" the whole time. In fact to shift, you just pushed a lever from turtle to rabbit to go faster. I finally got to Glen's and bought some cookies, but my teacher saw me and said "aren't those supposed to be homemade cookies?" I was busted. I bought the cookies anyways and dumped them into plastic bags so they weren't in the box and raced back to school. By the time I returned, the kids had moved on and no one wanted to play at my booth anyways.

Dream Four: I can't exactly remember all of it, but it involved a kitten

3-01-12; Inception

Although I have never seen the movie "Inception", my roommate says that I had a dream that is just like the movie. So, I had a class cancelled and therefore had a break from 1:30-3:30. I decided to go back to my room and take a nap. While I sleeping, I had a dream that I was laying in bed sleeping and dreaming.
So basically, I had a dream, that I was having a dream. 

While I was sleeping (in real life), I heard Avery unlock the outside door and then peak into our room. When she saw that I was sleeping, she left. As I was telling Avery about this last night, she says "I was at work all day, I never came home".
So, it turns out, what I thought was real... was a dream. And I had a dream about having a dream, and when I really woke up, I could not tell reality from my dreams.

2-28-12; Robber

I had a dream that I was at my friend Cassie's house. In the house was Cassie, her husband Brett, their daughter Addison, her sister Chloe and her parents Trent and Dee. I went over to the side door to let the dogs in and a big, grizzly, hairy man started attempting to enter the home. I screamed for help to close the door so that he could not get in. Brett and Trent came running over and helped me close the door. Meanwhile. I yelled for everyone to run out the front door to escape, because this man was for sure coming in. Brett grabbed Addison from her swing and they all rushed out of the house to safety while I kept the man busy at the side door. Just as he forced his way inside, I looked in the kitchen and realized Cassie was still there, baking cookies! I screamed to her to leave, but she just kept stirring the dough and checking the oven.
The man finally overpowered me and got inside the house. I grabbed a baseball bat and I hit him reapeatdly in the head, over and over. I thought he was dead. I ran to Cassie and asked her when she didn't leave the house, her daughter was outside! She just replied "God will keep me safe".
Just then, the man began to stir. He was coming straight towards us. Still trying to protect Cassie, I grabbed some peppermint oil to throw in his eyes to blind him enough so I could throw Cassie over my shoulder and make an escape. 

I woke up before we escaped..or were killed. But I believe God was protecting us both.

02-26-12; Mio Murder

Last night I had two dreams. The first, was that a Mio woman (my mom's friend) was murdered. She was driving down M-33 when she noticed that a car was following her. She thought it was just a coincednece, so she headed home and still the car followed her. She lives on a dead end street and by this time, there was nothing she could do. She attempted to get out of the car and run inside her house to lock the door. However, the attacker was able to get in through the sliding glass door. A struggle took place, but he claimed her life. She was the mother of 4 girls.

Second, I had a dream that I was taking an exam and I was running out of time. All of my classmates were waiting on me because they weren't allowed to leave until everyone was finished. I was almost done with my essay when one of my classmates stood up and screamed "I'm not letting you ruin my lunch hour" and he stormed out of the classroom. Numerous other students followed. I tried to finish my essay but I was crying because my feelings were so hurt. My stomach was in knots because time was running out. When I finally finished, I said to an empty classroom "it's not my fault that my mom has cancer". I went outside to lay in the grass and clear my head. A different classmate sat down next to me and suddenly it occurred to me that he was my boyfriend, however in real life I already have a boyfriend. It was almost like I had completely forgotten that I was in a relationship with this guy. I suddenly felt guilty about my posts to Chris (my real boyfriend) on facebook about Valentine's Day, Star Wars, etc. I couldn't believe that I had two boyfriends, I was so confused and disgusted with myself! But I didn't want to hurt his feelings, so I just went along with it. I got in the car with my sister and two friends and we were driving to Chris' house so I could tell him that I accidentally had another boyfriend. We were going over a bridge with a  guardrail when all of a sudden I missed the turn, broke through the guardrail and landed in a deep body of water. As the car sank, I attempted to bust out my window so we could escape but it worked to no avail. I began to press on the door using my legs and was able to free it enough for my sister and friends to get out of the car, but water was rushing in and I couldn't hold the door open and get out. They began to swim to safety and I began to drown. At the last second, the realized that I was still trapped in the car and it took three of them to hold the door open against the pressure of the water as I escaped. I inhaled a gasp of water right before I hit the surface, but somehow it was only oxygen that entered my lungs, and we all survived.

02-22-12: Truth Revealed

I do not remember much about my dreams last night, but the theme was that people were revealing secrets to me. I think I had this dream because I watched Star Wars episode II last night and a lot of secrets are revealed in that movie. 

The first secret I remember is Professor Hartshorne disclosing that the therapist in "Mary" is really him. 

Second, my friend revealed to me that she was pregnant and going to deliver in about a month. She had not told her husband yet.

02-20-12; Sweeney Hall Murder

Last night I had a dream that I was sleeping in my dorm room (which I really was) and that there were four attackers attempting to get in through my window and capture/murder me. One of the attackers was my elementary school classmate, Brad. I tried to barricade the window and hide, but they knew I was in there. I begged and pleaded with my RA to protect me, but she brushed off my concerns and said nonchalantly "they are not going to get in here and kill you, that is just silly". I was so panic stricken that I was crying. I heard the outside doors open, the attackers had busted through the locks and were about to capture me. The last thing I remember is seeing five or six guys running towards me, arms outstretched, to grab me and haul me away.

02-17-12; POW

In this dream, I have been captured and I am being held as a prisoner of war in Nepal. I was hauled in the back of a jeep through the camp and stowed in a basement. There are other prisoners as well and we are being heavily guarded, so escape is impossible. Suddenly I realize that I still have my cell phone hidden in my pocket and I have service if I stand near this one pillar. I begin trying to call/text/email people for help. I called my boyfriend, but he did not answer. I emailed my sociology teacher, because he would be able to stir up the media about my capture. However, every time I attempted to email/text someone, I kept pressing the wrong letters. I think it was because I was so scared to get caught and get my only lifeline taken away.

02-13-12; Drug Deal Gone Wrong

In my dream last night, I was sitting at Blair's (my dad's gas station) in a convertible with my step sister. My step mom was in her van in front of us with her window down, and dad was standing outside talking to all of us. All of a sudden, things went very still and the sun got really bright. My dad frantically tells us to leave because a drug deal just went down and it turned ugly, and people may be looking for revenge. My step sister blankly stares at him until he yells "get out of here!" She punches the gas, squeals the tires and leaves rubber tire marks as we peel out of the driveway. As we race down M33, she puts her blinker on to turn into our driveway. I beg her to not go home because the drug dealers know where we live, but she can't hear me because the wind is rushing in our ears. She passes our driveway and heads back to the stop sign, but we are stuck behind a maroon SUV. I am laying down in the back seat because I am so scared, but I decide to peak my head up and look out the windshield. At this moment, a grizzly looking man catches my eye, turns around in the driver's seat and fires four gunshots into my step sisters upper body/head. Panicking, I slump over in the seat, pretending to be dead as well so that he wouldn't shoot me. I prayed that I could hold still and play dead and maybe the gunman would think that he hit me with a bullet as well, or that one bullet went through my step sister and hit me. I am so overcome by fear at this point in my dream that I can't really remember what is happening, but somehow we are driving down the road again. How can my stepsister be driving if she is dead? Maybe the maroon SUV is towing us, I am not sure. There are people lined up on the side of the road watching, all the while I attempt to play dead. I am also watching myself from the side of the road,w illing myself to keep my eyes closed, yet they flutter open anyways. The news camera zooms in on my fluttering eyes and breathing body, but the shooter doesn't notice. He keeps on driving.

The last thing I remember is laying on an autopsy table, still trying to play dead, because I think the drug dealer has paid the funeral home director to dispose of our bodies secretly.

1-30-12; A Mouse and a Bird

My dream took place in my Aunt Wendy's house last night. I found a small white mouse while I was playing there with my cousin Hillary and I decided I wanted to keep it. It was the cutest most lovable mouse you have ever seen. It crawled all around on my hand and up my sleeve. When it was scared, it would hide in the cuff of my shirt from people and nibble on my hair tie. This little mouse was the best companion! I loved him so much and I feared that I would accidentally drop him in the house. My Uncle Mike and Aunt Wendy decided I could use one of their bird cages as a house for him. I picked a pretty, white cage to keep him in and lined it with toys. I went to put my pet in the cage but all of a sudden a cocktail appeared and I couldn't put my mouse in the cage for fear of him getting eaten. So instead, I sought out a fish tank. I searched the house high and low for a fish tank so I could keep my pet mouse in it. When I couldn't find one, I began getting really upset and I started to cry. My mouse was so in tune with my emotions that he got really sad and started squirming around. I accidentally dropped him on the wood floor :( When I tried to pick him up to make sure he was ok, my mouse had turned into a worm and it was mushed. It was a very sad ending to such a happy dream.

1-29-12; A Brown and White Puppy

Last night I had a dream that my roommate, Emily Nuss the MA, was hiding a tiny brown and white puppy in our dorm room. It was the cutest, more playful puppy I have ever soon. I took him outside to go potty and we played in a green meadow. When I took him back inside, I had to hide him in Emily's room behind a blue chair. 

I also had a dream that I was in a mall at the food court when suddenly I realized it was 2:00pm and I was late for work. I rushed to gather my things and get to the library but somehow I was in a completely different state. I knew I would never make it back to work in time, so I called my boss and told her that my alarm didn't go off and I overslept. Back at the food court, my friend Chloe shows up suddenly realizes that she too has to work at Subway tomorrow morning. We frantically try to find someone to cover her shift because we are 22 hours away. 

Then all of a sudden I am ice skating on a very small ice rink inside of my bedroom. I do not even know how to ice skate, yet I was doing all of these fancy slides and stops. My classmate Carlee was there and she was begging me to travel to New Orleans with her to go ice skating. I told her that we could just ice skate here, but she insisted that we had to go to New Orleans to get in an arial photograph they would be taking. The drive was 22 hours away and it was 7:00pm. The picture was suppossed to be taken at 10:00am. I told her that we would never make it but she contiually insisted. 

I think I got annoyed so I left the dream

Next, I was playing football back on my old middle school Mio Dolphins team. We were in the super bowl game against the Amish, who had some really huge corn fed boys. We were down by one touchdown when all of a sudden they stopped the game because there was a fumble and the refs were not sure who's ball it was. After much deliberation, they decided to ask if any of the players could be honest. One of my old classmates and teammates, Garret Price, stood up and truthfully claimed that the ball belonged to us. The game continued and I intercepted a pass and scored a touchdown. While going for the two point conversion, I missed the pitch and got crushed into the sidelines. I remember being partially awake and my stomach hurting really bad. I think we won the game.

1-28-12; Mormonism and the truth it holds

For my psychology class I must complete a personal project. My project while consist of this blog, and this blog consists of my dreams.

I started tracking my dreams last week, but this is the first substantial one that I can piece together for a story. I end every night before bed by saying my prayers. This particular prayer included a plead with God to give me a loud and clear sign about whether or not the Book of Mormon is true. I have been reading the Book of Mormon and investigating the church since November.

My dream took place at Smith Lake and I was standing at the top of a large wooden platform with four other people. The main character in this dream was me, yet she didn't look like me. I was actually watching her from above (maybe I was in Heaven). There was an ensign hanging from the wooden platform (which has religious meaning, I later found out). Below me, there were four or five groups/tribes of people. One group was the Nephites, another was the Lamanites, a third was the Zoramites and a fourth was the Gentiles. As the address was about to begin, I suddenly saw myself falling off of the large wooden platform, surely plummeting to my death.

About three seconds before I hit the ground, I was uplifted by a bright beam of golden sunlight. I began to revolve in the air with my chest puffed out as I rose above the tribes of people. Jesus' voice spoke through me and at that time, a few members from each group began to ascend into the sunlight above the ground as well.

When I told my roommate (a fellow Mormon) about my dream, she insisted that I should tell the Elders (missionaries). I did, and it turns out that my dream is a scripture passage from 2nd Nephi.
One of the Sister missionaries had asked the Elders about that specific passage just a few days earlier and so the Elders just happened to be studying this passage when I confronted them about my dream. I have never read nor heard of this scripture, yet I had an almost exact account of what happened in my dream. The Elders are convinced that this was my answer from God about the truth of the Book of Mormon. My baptism is set for Feb. 12